if my life gt 'if'

again,i will 2 wr0te in bahasa r0jak

life is n0t as easy as..hmm..as wat??

1 w0rd..life is bloodiness,is cruelty,is truculence N...

did u think b4??

where u cum 0ut??

where u will g0 after u perish??
i alway think b0t tis questi0n..

if i were an ant??

i m tender..

i cant talk..

i cant stand..

my life is sh0rt

if i were a c0w??

i m plump..

i w0rk 4 human..

human mind ate me at anytime..

i m herbiv0re..

i cant eat meat..

if i were a plant??

i cant walk..

i cant talk..
i cant m0ve..

i nid 2 pr0duce f00d vf my 0wn..

if i were a dinosaur??

u will nvr c me..

u dunn0 h0w actually i m...

u dunn0 why i become extinct..

myself is a questi0n mark???

if..if..if..if...

if my life..

really g0t s0 many if..

my life w0nt appears a w0rd s0 call 'regret'

if pn.haryati cum back 0n last week m0nday..

my friends N I n0w is at kelantan..

present 0urself at a kem s0 call kem kebangsaan..

if i went 2 tat kem..

i w0nt meet pn.hew at last friday..

if i dint meet pn.hew..

she w0nt t0ld me a l0t 0f pr0blem..

if she dint t0ld me tat pr0blem..

i w0n't think'ing s0 much..

if i w0n't think'ing s0 much..

i will n0t sitting infr0nt 0f pc..

wr0te tis article..

if i d0es n0t wr0te tis article..

u all w0nt be able 2 read tis 'scrap'

st0p..st0p..st0p..

st0p everythg

2 many IF..

IMPOSSIBLE..suet yee..

sedar diri..

fikir terlalu banyak..

s0rry

i wish i can ran away frm tis w0rld..

g0 2 1 place s0 call 世外桃源~~Xanadu

may i??

g0d

KURSUS kepimpinan pengawas 2009

2 days 1 nite at sg.gading,selang0r

18 & 19 0f april

i hav make myself present in a kursus..n0e as THE　ＭＯＳＴ STUPID KURSUS THAT I HAV NVR EVER WENT..

1st at all..

i w0uld like 2 c0mments b0t the tangga.

fuy0h..the tangga....dunn0 h0w 2 describe..

the tangga frm dewan makan t0 0ur bilik is juz like the distance frm hell t0 pie in the sky..

tired panjat tangga tu during the kem..

hey..sh0uld install the lift there..br 0k..=__=

besides tat.

there g0t a l0t 0f faci tat very gatal N jurulatih 0s0 same de..

dunn0 wat is nilai m0ral..

especially,gt 1 jurulatih very notorious

he bring us g0 nite walk at 11pm..idi0t bt0l..

in additi0n,we r nt all0w 2 bring the flashlight N 0s0 cant g0 inside vf pair.

u all n0e wat the intention we went inside..???

answer: 2 watch the stupid plant which will 0li irradiance after raining nite..

fuy0h.

actually..inside the jungle very dark..

i saw ntg inside there..

0li n0e i g0 inside there derma darah..bl00d d0nati0n??u th0ught i m s0 kind en0ugh ah?terpaksa de la..

i wish 2 menti0n the idi0t trainer wh0 bring us inside..

he is stupid en0ugh..

when the m0ments we reach tengah hutan..

we st0p a while..

and..

he was talking infr0nt..

we cant see anythg..

we cant talk..

when we talk X sampai 1 perkataan..

he will said 0ur sk0l prefect N PRS hav X disiplin..

IDIOT dia..

u r talking s0 much..y we cant talk oo??

F***

the A pek trainer..

tengah mlm stand infr0nt 0f us..

with0ut lampu suluh dan pe2..

he dare 2 talk b0t disiplin N kerjasama N s0 0n..

stupid A PEK..

y u muz talk inside the hutan??

cant talk after the night walk??

DIE~~

finally,we went back t0 0ur bilik at 12am

but,X 1 r fall int0 sleep..

EXCEPT the girl..

wh0 wearing hell0 kitty pyjama..

0mg..

actually,i really damn pity her,bc0z my juni0r keep laughing at her:they 0s0 n0n-st0p taking her ph0t0..

s0 shuai..

actually,a l0t 0f incident happen tat night..

few ppl pipe one's eye..

but i w0nt talk here.

i sh0uld respect 0ther's privacy

finally,i fall int0 at 2am..

at 4.30am..

my ph0ne's alarm rang..

s0ry..

i m s0 blur__wr0ng set alarm..

s0ry,gal..i hav disturb urs dreams

an0ther thg..

the kem there hav X electricitic 0n the m0rning N aftern00n de..

panas gle waktu ptg,Xde electric pula..

ishh..

the thg tat i enj0y the m0st is the ride 0f l0rry..

l00k like 卖猪仔。。

s0 sh0ck l0..

huhu..

wana try it 0ut again..

we reach sk0l at 4pm..N i straight awat went back h0me vf AZMINA~~

fuy0h..

tired..

2ml still gt exam..

i really g0tta pengsan..

0f c0z,when the m0ments i reach h0me..

i straight away fall int0 sleep..

peperiksaan kees0kkan ari..BM N maths..

maths 0f c0z X nid study..

main teke2..

but BM..

aiz..

mayb..will fail vf flying c0l0urs..

the end~~

g0d

EXAM~~intevensi 2.

Finally,5 days 0f intevensi (II) hav 0ver..24/4

P/S : plez all0w me 2 wrte in bahasa r0jak..=__='''

alamak,al0t 0f incident happen during the exam week..

i hav tired faced all the thg..all th0se thg mess up my life..

getting 0n nerves,really..nvr face tis b4..

nangis

marah

sedih

senyum

ketawa gle2

all happen during the exam week..

just a week 2 faced a small exam

i still cant d0 it well

h0w d0 i wish 2 handle a lembaga..

i sh0uld sedar bit

all the thg bl0ck my brain N eventually my mind is t0tally blank during the exam week

all s0alan N jawapan..i main teke2 0li..

aiz,i sh0uld admit..

i really dint d0 revisi0n..

kalau fail byk2..

i w0nt fel suprise..

if kedudukan kelas 0ut frm t0p 5, even t0p 10 0s0 i w0nt b suprise

obviouslly,my classmate hav already start d0ing their revisi0n 4 the next exam 0n may,except me..

i think i m the 1 wh0 t0tally h0peless in class

tis week,i alredy skip 5 tuiti0n class..very lazy 2 g0..

lazy w0rm is me^^

my mind fulfil vf all the pr0blem..

2day,i meet pn.hew at 6-8 c0rrid0r..

she invites me 2 having lunch at KM..

bc0z she gt sumthg wana advise me(actually is marah2 k0t..T__T)

s0,i juz ikut..vf MW 0s0

when the m0ments we reach there..

all the smpian ran away when they saw PN.HEW..

biasa la..

guru disiplin kan menak0tkan 0rg..

aiz..

as much as she talk..

as much as i think..

teacher..really nt my fault..nt juni0r fault 0s0..

i m X gatal la..T__T..

s0,sh0uld i delete my friendster acc??aiz..

~~disaster~~

g0d!!!!g0d!!!!

wat i get??wat i l0se??

f0r the last time,i turned and l00ked at the l0ng c0rrid0rs,winner are standing there feting..left the l0ser are l00king at them with the melanch0lic eyes,tat nt wat i want..tat nt wat the l0ser wan..i shut my eyes tightly and heard winner's laughter ech0ing d0wn the c0rrid0rs. My future are uncertain but they..was definite. I walked c0nfidently 0ut 0f the building , carrying "st.j0hn skuad" safely in my mind and in my heart, t0 a faraway place, u all r alway dreamt 0f visiting

过了。。输给自己。。赢了你们

怎么是这样。。

其实早就知道会是这样。。

我输了。。输在我笨，我紧张。。

不好意思。。成绩还没出就哭了。。真的好没用 。。

你们比我坚强多了。。

我不配嘛。。不配做c0mmander

老师。。谢谢你的肩旁。。T__T

skuad..谢谢你们的精神。。

你们是最棒的。。

你们赢了一切。。

我们只是输在没运气。。

我会记得今天的。。

我还记得你们给我的一切。。

pn.haryati..对不起。。让你再次失望。。

对不起。。真的对不起。。

juni0r们。。你们明年。。后年。。大后年。。

还有未来的日子再努力吧。。

冠军迟早有一天会是st.j0hn的。。

只是，那时我已经不能和你们分享你们拥有的喜悦。。

但是。。我会默默祝福你们。。

你们才是我生命中的伯乐。。

你们才是我生命中的神秘嘉宾。。

我也爱你们

最后一天

明天，就是明天了。。
大伙们辛苦那么久就是等明天了。。

我。。。是蛮怕的咯。。我怕输。。

不懂啦。。我什么都不懂。。
去年都已经看过这么多学校的kawad..
今年应该知道自己又没有做到很好。，
其实，自己不应该抱着太大希望。。
希望能拿个名次。。我想太多了啦。。

不管如何，尽力就好。。

没想到今天latihan..做错最多的人竟然是我（雪儿，你赢了。。炸到）
好烂哦。。

我最讨厌愚人节了。。白痴。。=__=

anyway..st.j0hn加油啊。。
我们这班seni0r老了啦。。
kawad完这次或hari k0k0就退休了。。
请给我在kawad生涯留下美好的印象。。好吗？？

谢谢你们。。
爱死你们了。。
虽然我每次骂你们。。
什么是大是疼，骂是爱呢？？
我骂你们是因为我爱你们嘛。。

这一篇，是最后一篇在比赛前updated的bl0g了。。
唉。。
明天updated的博克是开心还是伤心？？
我不敢取向。。
应该说，我害怕去想。。

请你们原谅我做错的东西。。
我的脾气是很坏。。
那是我性格。。不好意思。。

明天，就是明天了。。
st,j0hn加油。。
i r0ck u all..

btw,supp0rt KRS N kadet b0mba 0s0..^__^
but i r0ck st.j0h m0re..r u??
^__^

try ur best,d0 the best,beat the rest..

tell them wh0 we r??